After reading Janice's post, I began to think more about my past and what I've been through and in most of the memories that stick out, my friends are in them. I've realized that I haven't really been able to make any lasting friendships due to the fact that I move around so much and frankly, that makes me sad. (What follows bellow is a long summary of the friendships I've had, feel free to skip to the actual thinking/analyzing part or to just stop reading) I suppose the first, real, could-have-lasted-a-long-time, strong friendship that I ever had was with one Jenny Chang. We became friends in 2nd grade. If I remember correctly, we had known each other and occasionally played together (oh the forgotten wonders of playgrounds in elementary school) but didn't become best friends until after I randomly walked up to her one day during lunch and asked "Did you know that your mom and my mom were friends?" After that we became best friends. I remember swearing to be "best friends forever" and even buying those necklaces with her having half the heart and me having the other half. We had fun. I remember many occasions of having a sore tummy and rolling on the floor dying of laughter because of something Jenny said or because of her facial expression or because we just looked at each other with that certain look which hinted of an inside joke. But then, I had to move to WA and we had to say goodbye. In the beginning, letters were exchanged frequently and whenever I went down to CA I would be sure to visit her, but those letters and visits began to die out because we started to get more busy with our own individual lives. After Jenny, my closest friend became Joe from St. Joseph's, but that friendship died when I started attending Mcloughlin Middle School. From the beginning it was a group of friends, probably because we were the "challenge" kids and we kinda stuck together for the most part. I remember the first or second day of 6th grade. I was the new kid, didn't know anyone, was kinda shy, and so I kinda sat by myself at the table of challengers. Then Emma spoke up "You can sit with us, we don't bite" Still makes me smile when I look back at it. Those were good times. I remember Laura, Janice, and I cleaning up Mr. Obenour's room and even went as far as bringing broomsticks. We also had "kangaroo hopping" and "chair-y go round" stuff. Fun times. Besides that, there was the soccer playing during lunch, hanging out at the tree, almost nightly chat rooms, randomosity, and overall being there for each other. Middle school was a fun time for me and I wouldn't pass up that experience for anything else. But then... I moved. Again. Out of all the five times we moved, this move really really upset me. High School. What can I say, the past three years have been both good and bad. Freshman year, I didn't really have close friends and kinda moved from one group to another till near 2nd semester. I remember going back to WA once when we were about to sell our house and being touched when my Mcloughlin friends threw a party (partly because I was visiting and partly cuz they wanted to party, but lol, it was fun and still a great gesture). Then I came back to CA and I think that's when I actually started forming a strong friendship with Neeraja. I first met her in our PE9 class and then started hanging out with her and, what I at first called, her group consisting of two other girls, Jennifer and Tiffany. Over time I got to know all of them pretty well and became close friends with them. They were always there for me and if it wasn't for them, my life would be pretty dark and boring and cold right now. Not really much that I can put down in words because frankly, I don't know how to do that. Our friendship is something that I am truly thankful for, something that I couldn't survive without. Besides those three Musketeers (as we call ourselves), there were other friends or groups or whatever. There's the group that includes Harry, Sharon, Christina, Kuang and etc. Don't know how that really started but I think it had something to do with Christina and I going to that one prep center, and Harry calling me Boron all the time *grumbles about stupid chem honors* There's also the group with Sophia and Lillian and etc. in it. Don't really remember how that came to be either. I think I got to know Sophia in band and spanish and then got to know Lillian through Sophia. Fun times with them too, specially Lillian and mine's "Boo! Ahh!" game. We're not crazy, I swear we're not. *innocent look* ************* and why am I looking at my friendships? maybe because I'm wondering if they'll last once we all go off to college or if they'll end up dying like it did when I moved. Wondering if we'll remember each other's names and faces 10 years from now, 20 years from now. Right now, the present, seems so important. and yet, in the long run of things, is it really that important? People change. How many people can say that they're still the same person they are from elementary, middle or even the beginning of high school? I can't. As people change, their friendships change. It isn't because we try to get rid of friendships but rather people's feelings change with time and distance. And I'm scared. I don't want to loose my friends. Sure, I'll make new ones, but the friends I have right now are important. I don't want to loose them, I'm scared to loose them So in a way, I guess I'm asking my friends out there to not forget me, to not forget the time we've spent together. In a way, I'm asking them to always be my friends | 
